New things to come

So, I've been learning a few new things at work. Some skills that are honestly things that you go to school to learn. Since i started here almost a year ago, I have been learning more and more things. (this is so vague). Anyway...i started learning some seriously-hard things in the past weeks, and it has made me wonder if I would continue doing these "back-office" tasks once we hired someone else to help out. Right now it is just the two of us working here, and the dynamic is so perfect. I have the best job. My boss has made comments about worrying about hiring someone else and that person ruining the dynamic of our work relationship. And honestly, I have the same fear. Because we work so GREAT together. And he teaches me and trusts me. Well, anyway, throughout all this teaching I have wondered if I would continue to do the back office tasks once we hired the aforementioned new person, or if all this was temporary. But I was afraid to ask him, because I was afraid of the answer. I did not go to school to do what I'm doing now, and although i LOVE IT...there are people in the world who are more qualified to do what I'm doing. That is the part that made me doubt that he'd keep me in the back and let the new person take over the front. So, for a long time I never asked...because I was afraid of the answer and what that would do for my attitude at work and my attitude towards him. I was afraid of the slap in the face.

But today, I felt an opportunity to ask. And you know what I did? I marched right into his office and I said, "I don't know if you have given this much thought, but when we hire someone else (knowing that that is not going to be for a while) will the new person push me to being at the front 100% of the time or will I be in the back?" I was proud of my self for actually asking instead of saying something like..." I know you haven't given this much thought, but..........................................do you like black or pinto beans better??" Because, trust me, if you knew how many times I've gone in his office to ask this question and ended up chickening out and asking something else royally stupid....you'd laugh your head off.

So you know what his reply was? He said that he is hoping to have the new person sit at the front and move me to the back office FULL TIME! oh my goodness!!! this was the answer I had been hoping for!! And then he proceeded to tell me how proud he was of my performance and that I had proved myself and to get ready, because more is coming. This was such great news!!

You see, I love my job.

I love working WHERE I work. I love working with WHO i work with. I love WHAT i get to do on a daily basis. I could not be happier in my job. And when he told me that what I love about my job will eventually be FULL TIME I felt like doing a little dance right there in his office. Except, well, I can't dance so it would have been some sort of shaking of the body that might have caused him to dial 911 thinking i was having a siezure. But anywho.

So, i sat down and told him how happy his response had made me and how much i enjoy my job and all the things that I'd been wanting to say for a long time, but i felt it was too awkward. And he thanked me. And he seemed really pleased. And I felt so good.

So...I finally have my answer. And I can rest easy. And now I have even more desire to do the ABSOLUTE best job I can, because he has faith in me.

And that feels so good.